I’m Back!

Sometimes we need to walk away from things, take the time to re-set and prioritize. I have done that and now I am ready to be present with what I am truly passionate about - creativity & writing. Although the last blog was about deleting Instagram, I went back after 3+ months off. I stayed for 7 weeks and watched myself slide back into the ‘numb & dumb’ scrolling and endless comparisons. I was reminded again of why it drains me and slowly sucks the life out of my precious soul. Yes, it does need to be that dramatic. On the first day back, I had a hard time sleeping - nothing else changed in my life. That is fucked up, my poor brain was just inundated with so much bullshit I couldn’t hear myself anymore. After ONE day! ONE!

So, what has gone on over the last year? A lot of deep healing. I have to say that finding the right therapist will change your life. That and you must be willing to make changes, take responsibility, own your shit. Making a giant move from AZ to MO has given me the opportunity to grow more than I ever imagined. Seasons create resilience - dealing with winter after being bathed in sunlight my entire life has been an adventure, to say the least. Spring is almost here and I couldn’t be more excited to see everything come back to life, including me. There is something symbolic about death and rebirth with the seasons and it is beautiful. I have let go of things I have been dragging for far longer than I expected to, and that has given me so much freedom. I have the time and space in my mind to allow new beginnings. For the first time in my life, I have profound inner peace and I am not running from it, I am running towards it.

I hope the newness of Spring brings joy to your heart and that you make space to let love in.